Hello hello, friends, Ali here! Full disclosure, I am nervous about sharing this project. It is one that I recently started, as this season of my life has become exhausted by anxiety. I have always had anxiety, but it was manageable with exercise and a healthy diet. But lately I need a little more…enter art journaling. Lately writing it down and getting it out of my head is helping tremendously. For me, anxiety is that voice in my head repeating the same obsessive thoughts again and again and again…and well, you get the point. But when I can focus on scrapbooking, or painting, or journaling, I can get it out of my head (if only for that moment). So in an effort to reveal more of my authentic self, I have decided to open up more about my personal struggles…
I recently ordered an insert from Rock Your Notebook with Tomoe River Paper and I am SO IMPRESSED! I love how thin it is, but it holds up to watercolors! It is amazing. I have been super inspired by Irit Landgraf (I mean, really, who isn’t inspired by her?) and her super bright colors and fun designs. I didn’t want to think a lot when I made this background, it was my very first spread in a new notebook and I just wanted to lay some pretty colors on my new thin crinkly paper!
Getting out of my own head is not an easy task, but not overthinking and just plopping paint here and there really works for me. It feels good. It doesn’t always look great, but honestly, I don’t care! Rocking your notebook isn’t about creating a masterpiece every single time, it is about getting in your notebook and enjoying yourself! And that is exactly what I did here.
The fun part for me was creating the background. And when it was done I did a few more spreads. I love that I can create and paint and just enjoy the process…but later I can come back and write down my thoughts and really get those out. For me, this is therapy. This process has helped me in such a short time that I feel compelled to share!
I ended this journaling how I hope to end all of my spreads, with a positive affirmation that I can overcome whatever negativity I may be feeling in that moment. When I look at this spread I don’t feel the negative emotion that anxiety contributes to my daily life, I feel joy and happiness from the colors and movement….and I feel strength in the power I have given myself to rise above a challenge! Do you use art to cope with struggles in your life? I would love to see you share your work in the Scrapping Wonders Facebook group, it is a safe place that we can all lift each other up, hope to see you there!